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dreaminglast night was so great! I told gwyd that he needed to do his homework and that he should do the dishes as well and he started kissing me and I told him that I didn't want him to strip me or touch anything below my waist. and so we made out for like 15 minutes and then I gave in and his face went quickly between my legs and started licking and when I had gone we had sex 5 times and it was all so perfect... it even took 3 hours..... which is the longest we've ever, had sex for.
ok well first for the subject: my dream this morning
I had a dream about gwyd and my;s wedding and for some reason all of europe and the united states decided to build a bridge going from new brunswick to england. and we wanted to have our wedding at the faciest hotel in the world half way to england. so we were going across the bridge and at one of the check point where we had to show our id's and such we were one of the familys selected for searching (well gwyd and myself and reg and joe were all in one car and mom and dad and fred and leigh were in a different one) so I told gwyd to go ahead and pull off to the side and we got out so that they could search our vehicle. While we were standing out there, some girls from sweden came to visit us and we were talking and stuff and all oft he sudden gwyd started drooling and gaggling over one of them and I was like what the fuck?! and they were going to the hotel too and once we got there we went to our suite and it wasn't ready and it wouldn't be for a day and so we went to visit the sweden pepole again and turns out that they were sleeping in the unfinished part of it, the part that was still going under construction and they showed us where they had found a suite in prossessing and that's where we were staying so we were there and they somehow were prancing across the 2x4 struts that were installled and thwere was an entire floor of struts we had to walk across and then there was a hole in the ceiling and we had to climb the wall struts to get through it and then once we got through that one there was another one on the floor above it and then we were into the suite which oddly enough had a floor and a ceiling and water and electricity. so we were up there and I was trying to get gwyd to come with me to go get some food but he didn't want to come because he didn't want to have to cross all of the struts jujst to get food, so he decided to stay there with the sweden girl that looked a lot like mariha carey and so I left to get food and when I came back I told gwyd that our wedding suite was finally available and he was fatter and taller and he would leave the sewdish people and I got all sad and I was like... if you love me, you'll come with me right now.... and I left and he wasn't following me, and then he shouted to me half way across the struts and so I came back and he tossed me my sweater and he's like don't forget that, and then he went back to her, the swedish girl. and then I left.... alone
but now for the real life tuff...
but it was the weirdest thing... I really HATE the way that jizz tastes so I normally pull off as soon as he says he's going and last night I decided not to and when he came the taste awas so discusting I actually gagged!!!! I've never gagged before.
but last night was so amazing...
sometimes we play this game where I pretend that it's my first time (because I really had NO choice what so ever my first time and I was 6 so) and gwyd's all this experienced man of the world who can teach me everything.... and evey time that we wend up playing it... he's so kind and gentle and.... it got me to thinking, gwyd would've been the perfect guy to lose my virginity to, because he;s so kind and gentle and caring. I still remember the first time that we ever had sex. I was worried becuase of me being raped that I wouldn't be able to handle it psychologically, and I told wgyd that if I told him to stop he had to immediately and back off and he promised he wouold and he was gentle and so cautious about hurting me and caring and it was just perfect...