|Current mood:|| anxious|
|Current music:||Evanescence - My Immortal|
Bittersweet kisses of the first kind.
Oh wow, my first blurty entry. How exciting! I'm a little disappointed, though, because everything is the same as livejournal, and I was hoping for something different. I'm not sure how I'm gonna keep up with this bitch, I have a hard enough time keeping up with my livejournal. I just needed a journal that a certain someone had no idea existed...a place that's private, at least to my friends. It'd be nice if sometimes they didn't know everything about me, or didn't always have a comment for me. I don't mind random people, it's my friends I worry about..
My friend Charlie. *Sigh* what can I say about Charlie? He is an amazing kid. I realized too damn late and I hate myself for it. He went to Maine for good now...but in a way, I'm relieved.
He came over yesterday (some parts of Massachusetts are in a serious state of emergency due to overwhelming bouts of snow, and my city fell under that category, thus resulting in 3+ days off from school (no school tomorrow either). So where was I? He came over...he and Peg, aka Amy, and we went to get some pictures developed and we played in the snow, and we kissed..Charlie and I, that is, and it just felt so right...at the time, at least. But after thinking about it for awhile, it was like kissing my...brother. It just wasn't right, and I feel awful, but it wasn't. And the fact that I have feelings for another guy doesn't do much for me, either, but Charlie knows I've liked Ryan for a long time...and by long I mean off and on for almost a year.
Argh, anyway, wunderbar first entry, no? More to come tomorrow.