|Current mood:|| calm|
I've had some really strange dreams lately. Mix that with my out of control heavy deja vu and it leads me to believe that something is still in the process of happening. With everything that's been going on I'm wondering if I even have time to make another change. It's really starting to seem like the thing to do, but a change this big isn't easy to make. Especially when I've already made it once and changed my mind. I really don't like having to hurt people, but I've been thinking of everyone else so much that I'm not happy anymore. Well, that's not true; I am happy, I'm just not as happy as I should be. There's always this nagging doubt in the back of my mind, and I'd like it to go away. I've just gotten too good at second guessing myself. I'll add it to the list of things I need to work on.