|Current mood:|| determined|
Sad sad sad
I suppose things have only gotten worse. I guess he didn't really need time, he just decided that he doesn't want to see me again ever. On top of that, I went to the doctor yesterday, and apparently I have pneumonia. I'm feeling better, they gave me some lovely little pills. Actually, no, I'm feeling better physically. Mentally, emotionally, whatever else, I feel not so good. I don't have pills for that though, and I don't know what else to do. I know what I want to say to Sean, I've had it all planned out since last night, but then today I find out it doesn't even matter anymore. Now I don't know what to do. I mean, my other guy is really acting like he doesn't care at all, worse than he has before. His lack of emotion is scary. I really want to try for it anyway, but he basically told me I'm wasting my time. Maybe I'll be happier by myself and I should just talk to Sean anyway. I'll figure things out. I have faith.