| Current mood: | curious |
| Current music: | Sepultura - Ratamahatta >:) |
ah, the sweet sounds of Sepultura :)
hah, i just love Ratamahatta...i have no clue what they're saying...it's Portuguese tribal speak. but i'm pretty damn sure it's not nice...lol as long as it sounds angry i'm all for it.... >:)
ahhh... *ROOTS BLOODY ROOOTS!!!!* who's feeling evil today *looks around her cave of a comp area* me? cute, little, sweet chubby cheeked, big pretty smile Kelly? the so called "eptiome of cute" according to her friends... never! heh heh heh.
hmmm.... it's just great how people love to try and bring me down. i get such a cynical kick out of it, why? because most people are very unsuccessful while trying to do so. "just as long as i feel like i don't feel like i have to kill anyone it's okay." REALLY? I DARE YOU TO FUCKING TRY AND LAY A FINGER ON ME!!! i'm just really afraid aren't I? pfft. you're seriously going to tell a girl who was raised in a non bradybunch ville area like Elmhurst aka "da hurst" as it's known to the ghetto people....heh. com'on now.. i can make him and his bradybunch ville ass cry in less than five minutes!!! who wants to place bets...lol j/k :)
it's just funny, most people consider me a "good friend", yet they don't remember i'm human.... I AM ALLOWED TO FUCK UP!! and yet, when i do fuck up, oh it's the end of the fucking world KELLY FUCKED UP... she's such a bitch now. but let someone make the same mistake and it's okay right? life is fucking hilarious. yep, i'm always the bitch...right? even when i try my best to be there for all my friends, and SCREW my time to myself, i'm still the bitch right? just goes to show a bit of "being selfish" doesn't hurt.
don't try and bring me down because your words mean SHIT to me....all the more fuel for me to "hit you right back"? remember, i will never be as big a bitch as KARMA is... what goes around comes around.
life is the biggest comedy....
today was actually okay, my emotions were quite unstable besides the high estrogen levels due to PMS. but i'm glad most of my friends understand how i can go from happy to bitchy to sad in a matter of 20 minutes. it's just sad that you let someone TRY and make you're friend feel inferior. thats the only thing i'm a bit upset about. other than that, things like "you thought i was like in love with you" are a laugh when i've heard my mother say "I don't want to live anymore, i want to die." it's just like someone lightly tapping me expecting it to hurt. then getting yelled at by your mother for being online at 12:30am sunday night when i said i'd be in bed by 12 is even better.. i had to tell her what was going on so she could understand why i was online so late. she's not too chipper about it...i think she's more ticked off than i am. Bah.
i went on a trip today, got to hear James McBride, the author of The Color of Water, which i'm currently reading, speak about his book. i actually like it so far...it's pretty good. had a good time on the trip actually...
i have 2 tests this week...American History and Math, i think i'll do alright on both. I've been actually getting almost all of my Math homeworks correct lately. quite proud of myself :) American History is usually cake, so i'll do fine.
Spent the day with Rosy on sunday....she did little braids in my hair. just four of them scattered on the top of my head...i thought i looked quite nice on monday thank u.. but i didn't get to take pics :/
i hope this just all blows over soon....it's just really "unnecessary drama over a fruit" as Steve said... Lmao :) it's just all stupid bullshit....bah. like my dad said "mi'ja, eres muy joven para tener esta clase de problema, y se que tu eres un buena amiga, y que tambien tienes un gran corazon." in other words "you're too young to be dealing with this kind of shit, and i know you're a good friend and that you have a big heart." my dad can be such a mush....lol awww....yeah yeah barf barf...lol ;)
i'm just gunna take it easy, whatever happens...i have a lot of things to take out my frustration on.... my artwork, my writing, i can vent to my friends, read, and 4 online journals..lol grrr, Angel's having problems with his girlfriend. bah...chicks can really suck. kinda feel like it's my fault and i know Angel's saying "no it's not" right now..lol she read comments i left, Angel said "what the fuck is your problem...thats steve's ex!!!" lmao i'm guessing it's a trust issue, which she really shouldn't have because Angel isn't that type of guy... and he loves her and cares about her a lot....but it's not my issue, i just hope they get through it. i honestly do. poor friend in law :/ feel better Angel...talk to u soon. i'm cooking for you guys soon....gotta make up for the muteness last friday... AND I'M NOT TAKING "NO" FOR AN ANSWER! :P
well...i'm off to do some homework.
later... ;)
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