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| Current music: | watching secret diary of a call girl |
don't know what to put here
Apocalypse says:
thats the thing about us...our kind. we can't be found unless we want to be, unless we reveal ourselves, which we're not likely to do often. I happened across my newer acquaintances by chance. I hope things settle for you.
Me:
Apocalypse I am so happy for you that I did flips all over my class room today.
I am mentally tired and over worked. I’m lonely and completely uncaring to ANYONES “luck” as it were cause it hasn’t happen to me. Will it happen to me I don’t know. Maybe I am in a league of my own because I have been labeled as “weird” since the day I was born. Babies and little kids look at me for a prolong period time every time I am around them . I haven’t been blessed in my opinion except maybe for having my dad in my life and possible my mom but those are questionable to an extent cause I am somewhat held back because of the love I have for them…but that is a different story. I have had highs and lows in my life with these past couple of months being some of the lowest I have been in a prolonged period of time even with my attempts to make a turn around for the better.
Your words do not help me as I am still in the predicaments I am in now. It is appreciated though but they do not help. I mean we are not physically and mentally tight as we once were; that would help me so much because I felt free from the bondages of daily life. I need action in my life but as of recently am unable to do much and my peoples are unable to do much for me cause of whatever. All I can do is try when I can , complain and possible cry all to myself if those mental break downs happen and maybe be by myself.
All I really have to say is don’t sound so gay with being so sentimental to me and my plights cause I find them kind of annoying. Tell me what I like to hear cause you mean them not because I say so. I let you figure out what that might be since you might not know what that is.
12:38am september 29, 2009
Mood: uncomfortable and tired
I need to be held right now in bed .
Just relaxed.
Mind cleared ,
wanting yester-years cause that is all I know
and can't have back.
I need a new beginning.
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