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Empty fields move me so much more..
This is a poem I wrote shortly after my ex-boyfriend dumped me.
This is just some information about him - feel free to skip it but please DO read my poem; it would mean a lot to me.
All of my friends told me before I started anything with this guy 'he's bad, he'll cheat on you, your only going to end up hurt' and even his friends said this too. But me, having a knack for ignoring my friends, went for him anyway. It's my damn kicked puppy complex, my friends and I decided that I have a complex that was cleverly named "kicked puppy" - the more depressed and emotionally wounded a guy is - the more likely I am to fall for him. In any case, he did end up cheating on me - and I had a list of witnesses too. But, he did something no one expected, he begged and cried to get back together with me. Of course, I accepted him back, putting my faith in someone I truly shouldn't have, only for him to come to me one week later saying his feelings changed and he did not love me anymore. The next day he slept another girl he claimed there was nothing going on with, and three days later he had a different girlfriend who he said to her and some of my friends that he was really in love with her the entire time he was with me. Ugh. I will never understand any of this. But that is life - and I'm better now :)
Alright - here is the poem:
Is this what you meant when you said forever?
Forever is how long I'll miss my heart
After you tore it out of my chest
Is this what you meant when you said 'I love you'?
"I love you in this moment
But when tomorrow comes I'll be holding someone else"
Is this what you meant when you said I was the best?
I was the best at listening to your lies
The best to lie to
I know you faked so much
But I think I lied to myself
Even more than you lied to me
So whose to blame?
I tried much to hard
To hold onto your diminishing attetion
And you were too busy trying to hold onto everyone else
To realize I was still in your arms
*Any feedback is welcome, all I ask is that your honest.
Thanks
_vikki_
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