Tonight will be the first that I don't think of you. I'm leaving the lonely feelings behind but I know your eyes are watching my back. It would kill me to turn around. So I'll just take my heart in my hand and wish it didn't have to end this way. I'm sorry you killed me inside too, sorry that I know what hate feels like now. I'm apologizing for the fact that I meant nothing to you, as all girls do. I would have been the girl to rock your world and make you forget all your mistakes. But mistakes seem to be your profession, I know you don't get paid well. Don't count on me for sympathy, or anything else for that matter. Believe me, I'm better than this and you never will be. Always second rate to what I want out of love. You stole my innocence and took my vulnerable feelings for granted. All I wanted to do was steal your heart, but even that came at a price. Tears flooded my eyes and lungs every night, did you want me dead? I'm dead inside to you, and you to me. Watch me pretend this never happened... so who are you? I can hear you beating yourself up inside. It's the worst way to try for happiness. Tonight I wish a shooting star would aim straight for your heart. Because nothing else could touch you. And I hope you realize that this happened for a reason, because I didn't deserve this.... you didn't deserve me. And darling, you never will. Because this time I'm believing in myself, I couldn't ask the same for you.
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