|Current mood:|| crappy|
Rest, that's what I want. I do not want people nagging at me (mom?) I do not want people expecting anything from me (nearly everyone)
I want R.E.S.T.
Rest inside my head, rest inside my life.
Why can't I find it?
Is it so much I'm asking for?
Seems like it.
Everything seems fucked at the moment. Last saturday I already had a breakdown, and I don't want to come that far again! It felt like I went insane or something...
Maybe because that's what I am? I don't know...
I'm confused, feel dead inside, feel like crying again, feel like making myself bleed big time...
Just cut myself to pieces and don't give a shit.
But that won't work, and I know that.
I'm living on a cracker thus far with a single slice of cheese, and water. Think I lost 2 lbs as well, go me.