| Current mood: |  anxious |
| Current music: | That Girl: Marques Houston |
Finally.. I See The Light.
*grins down at the assortment of things on his hotel bed, goes over his plans inside his head* This has to go perfectly. It has to. I've been really difficult and horrible to my fiance's lately, and it's about time I be a man, and fix it. When people love you, you can't get scared and shy away from love. You can't chicken out. Because if you do, you screw yourself over from something that has the potential to be the greatest thing in your whole life. What are we living for, if not for love? Love really is the only true happiness. I realize that now, and I need to do some serious changing to fix the mistakes I made. But, I'm willing to.
I only stayed with Dan for a couple of days. It went..okay, I guess. We had a major talk about everything, and I think he understands now why I had to let go for that amount of time. I needed to step back and make sure that it felt right. And I know now it does. So we are okay now. *smiles slightly*
Now, I have to fix things with America. *sighs* That's not as easy to fix I don't think. Dan..he reads me so well. He probably knew what was going on inside of me before I did. But, America.. I think I kind of blindsided her with pain and hurt. *nods* I know I hurt her when I couldn't explain why I had to leave. And I was an ass about it anyway. But, that's going to change. As of now. I may not be able to go back, or take it back, but I'll do my damndest to fix it.
*dials your number, tapping nervously on the phone, voicemail picks up* Baby..it's me. Look, I know that things are..messed. right now. But I think that's about to change. When you get home you'll find a ticket on your coffee table. All you have to do is go to the airport and catch your plane. It's up to you if you want to do that. If you do, I'll pick you up at the airport at 9. If not, I understand. I'm hoping I'll see you at that airport baby. *takes a deep breath* I know that I've done a lot wrong lately. But I'm ready to fix it, if you'll let me. *laughs softly* And yes baby, Chicago. Don't ask. You'll see. I love you. A lot. You know this. Please let me show you how much. *hangs up, a smile playing at his lips*
*lays back on the bed, closes his eyes* I should take a nap before I have to get a shower and get dressed. Actually I just need to do anything that's going to ease my nerves. I don't think I've ever been this nervous.
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