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Sigh... I juz washed up and felt refresh and all that... Den suddenly come online tok to snaffie... Den sadz again... Haiz... Aiyo... Dunno what to feel leh... I feel like an arsehole for 'choosing' between three guys... Maybe I unsure of my feelings... Maybe I juz being greedy... I have no idea...
This whole love thing is so interesting... Its hard to describe so one finds it difficult to share the feeling of being in love with another... Its even weirder when someone who has never fallen in love is trying to put himself in the shoes of another... Sigh...
Listening to my friends feeling happy makes me smile... I dunno why le... Snaffie was over the moon when his crush called him earlier down... :P I felt happy for him as I read his sms... Haha... Goodness am I such a sensitive fool? Perhaps it is this characteristic that makes it hard for me to discern whether or not I truly feel for someone?
I once thought: "Is it really THAT difficult to accept singlehood?" I dunno le... I really warm up to the idea of waking up in the morning with someone by your side... You lift yourself up and gently place a hand on him, sniffing in the mixed scent of his smell and the freshness of the airconditioned morning air... Lol... The smile on his face draws a similar reaction from you as you plant a kiss on his lips and lie down in a light embrace... Haha... Me and my fantasies...
Placing myself in the shoes of the content single male, I think of all the various methods of self-fulfillment and contentment. It just makes me wonder if someone carefree will ever fall in love... Haha... Goodness knows... I mean, just imagine. A person lives each day with new meaning... Finding contentment in his life... Along comes a stranger who gets to know the life of this happy individual... Is there a possibility of anything happening? I dunno le... I'm just, as mentioned in my post earlier, one who likes to think of such 'drama' thoughts.... :)
One person told me that when yr in love with someone, you feel for him, his world... Share his joy, experience his pains... I thought I felt that way leh... But then I usually feel the same way for my close friends... I have no idea... Its just a natural reaction le... I just feel happy knowing that he/she is happy too... :) Aww.... *tear* Lol...
Darn it... The brightness of the screen is hurting my eyes! Making me tear... Making me sad.... Sad about? I dunno what I'm feeling sad for... Sad that the person I like is choosing between people too, and yours truly didn't make the cut? Sad that I have never valued life the way I want to and have barely begun to etch a full line into the latest chapter of my life story? I have no idea....
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