|Current mood:|| blank|
|Current music:||Vampires Will Never Hurt You, My Chemical Romance|
It feels like forever since I've touched this damn journal. Nothing has been happening that is deadly interesting. There hasn't been any real reasons for updating. (I think I'm changing again...). The band has been going through a long recording process. The guys don't want me to play bass anymore, well, Araon doesn't want me to play bass anymore. Tim has been an idea for a new bassist for us. Yes, Tim, Trish's little brother. I really wouldn't mind. It would be nice to just be a singer so I can go insane on stage. You know, licking people and shit like that.
That's that, this is this.
To be quite honest, I think I'm changing a lot. I haven't been as depressed as I usually am. I think things inside of me are fading. It's hard to explain. I just don't feel like myself anymore. I haven't been able to write anything lately, which is about 2 months. I worried I won't be able to write anything ever again. I guess I kind of miss the old days. The tragedy was something great to write about. But now there's no more tragedy, so I'm happy and all. I just feel like something's missing. I figured music was a great place to set the old flames ablaze, so I've been listening to a lot of my old music. The memories feel good, but that's all they are, memories. That's what gets to me the most.
Trying to find my way,
† Hellcat †