|Current music:||manson and slipknot(it takes me away like a pill)|
havent had time to updaye im at pennys now all alone supposedly doing homework i just finished reading my girlfriends entrees they dont sound good so far i think shes listening to people to much she thinks i dont love her but i do im just really bad on showing it. scince schools started its been really hard to get sleep im getting pulled every where i always have somewhere to go . my day is go to school go to latebird then either go with ashley the band, my friends or go home and clean its been really stress full cuz my school scheduale sucks, my girlfriend is fading away, the band is hetting pissed cuz we havent been able to practice, my friends always hang out when i cant and if i do hang out with them everyone else gets pissed and lately everysingle time my parents get home all they do is fight so something always goes wrong. school is no longer fun life its self is complicated.right now theres nothing i look forward to anymore everything in my life has something bad. a while ago i took some caffiene pills they got me in a really sucidal deppresing mood but also made me realize alot of shit. my head feels like its going to bust im so confused and lost more than the ordinary but the worst part is that no one can help me not even penny.the only thing i really appreciate is the kind of life ive had so far i have a good one with a family who actually cares.