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It's been a while
Sweet mother of God where have I been? Well I'm sure everyone has stopped reading by now, which means I'll get all of 3 people reading this, all of which accidently click the wrong link and don't bother to read it. But anywho let's catch everyone up on the life and times of myself.
Well I've finished my third semester at school, didn't do as well as I would have liked, it may be my last for a while actually. I've been training a lot with the Guard to get ready for the transition into the Stryker's, working at the Brewery, and other than that it's been the same old shit.
RIght now I've been thinking a lot about transferring to active duty military. Frankly I like the idea of training everyday, being around people I trust all the time, and just knowing things are secure. Sure there's a risk of being sent over, oh well, I really wouldn't mind. I know that sounds odd but it's true, being deployed wouldn't be the worst thing in my life.
I know I'm jumping from topic to topic, but my minds a little scattered so I'm jsut gonna type whatever my mind is on at the moment. At this moment it's on people. Some are generalizations, aome are directed towards friends of mine, others are just for shits and giggles. I'd like to start hings off with a little segment I call "Reality: You're in it so get used to it." I'm finding more and more that most college kids think that reality doesn't apply to them. They think that college is somehow apart from actually reailty, and in a way, an extension of high school. They act just as they did while in grade school, and think that it won't have any serious consequences. Things like hooking up with random guys, bringing them home, puttting yourself and roommates in danger, these are all trivial and have no real consequences in the minds of some people. I'd just like to say that you need to grow the fuck up and realize that life can end in an instant because of a stupid decision, or indecision for that matter. Start realizeng the affects of your choices and take some responsibility, for God's sake this is life now and you have to think long term. But whatever, people get themselves into these bad situations, fuck 'em, they can get themselves out.
Another thing, love. How bout that shit huh? Confusing ain't it. Some people think they have it, while in reality it's nothing more than INFATUATION. That's right people, contrary to waht you believe, strong feelings for a person don't always mean love. What they mean is that you have a few things in common, so your brain goes into overload and says "Let's call this shit love and see what happens." People getting married in high school, oops, I mean college(the way people act I get confused sometimes), having long-distance relationships, and things of that sort, well I hope you all end up hurt and divorced to prove a point that love is more than a few strong emotions.
One last thing on my rant, I'm not sure when it happened, but I realized as of late that the people I thought were my friends have up and left my life. Well I say good riddance, I know I've become a pessimistic, cynical boar and I'm glad I don't have to put on a good face to make them feel better anymore. So here's my closing comment to all those I once called friends...
Fix things yourself, I hope you get your hearts broken, and don't count on me to be there when you really need me, you weren't for me.
-Kevin
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