|Current mood:|| loved|
|Current music:||run around- blues traveler|
highlight of my summer
as you know, i went to the shore with richie, and i had soooo much fun. it was really fun, we played mini golf, went to the beach, saw finding nemo, haha goood movie! and just hung out on the boardwalk. both nights we came back to the house and started watching a movie at like 12, so we didnt get to bed til around 2, haha. but it was such a fun time, i honestly thought that i would be sick of him after spending like 1 night, but i soo didnt, and then after we got home yesterday, we hung out last night! haha, but no one is really home, which kinda sucks.
we had some really great conversations when we were together, like he told me stuff that i never knew before, and we just talked about stupid stuff like school this year coming up, and the dances (haha! got dates for all of them now!) but i realized, that i dont know what i would do without him. like my life has changed so much, for the better, since we've been going out. i feel like i can tell him absolutely anything, even stuff that i cant talk about with my closest girl-friends (not girlfriends, but friends that are girls..) and spending that amount of time with him, showed me how important he is to me, and how much i really do love him. i can truthfully say that i dont know what i would do without him, and i dont even want to think abotu that. i can really see us going out for a really long time, maybe, if things stay as good as they are now, maybe most of high school. omg, and i just melted when he was talking to me, and all of the sudden was like "drea, i wish we were older.." and i asked why, and he said "because i would marry you." no one has ever said anything like that to me before, and to hear him say that, just made me feel soo good. i would love that more than anything to spend my life with him, and it might sound like stalkerish, or wierd, becasue im only 15 and too young to say this kind of stuff. but i dont know, with him, i feel..complete. im sure many people my age say this sort of stuff, and think that theyre really "in love," and people say that kids our age dont know what love really is. but i am certain i do, because if this isnt it, then i dont know what it is, because hwta we have is so strong. this isnt like a stupid crush that we only go out to h/u or w/e, its soooo much more that that, its completely indescribable..but all i know is that i need him more than anything, and hes the most important person in my life. and god forbid, if we did ever break up, i dont think that even then i would be able to get over him and move on to another person. because i feel like no matter what, ill only feel this way about him. but what do i know, im too young to feel this way, right?...<3
until next time,