|Current mood:|| stressed|
|Current music:||sorry 2004... ruben studdard|
basically what hes telling me is that he's never gonna trust me again. that he loves me, BUT hes never letting me get that close to him again. That hes never letting me back into his heart again. i dont know what to do anymore. i know i screwed up. i know that ive made mistakes and hurt him, but theres nothing i can do to win him over, and if there isnt then why are we trying? why is he still hanging on? why am i?? i had all the faith in the world that he was the one. that i was going to marry him. i threw it all away. i thought he was going to give me another chance, but it doesnt seem like im getting a fair one. we dont talk as much as we used to when on the phone and we barely get to see each other. we're back at the slump that we were in. i want out of it. theres nothing i can do.
possibly more later on my depressing life... im gonna go lay down or something. i feel like crap...