| Current mood: |  drained |
| Current music: | radiohead. |
let my life empower you.
i guess thats the basic idea for tomorrow. the portraits of survivors is all morning. we're drawing holocaust victims for mrs weitz. im pretty excited but also kind of not because people are just about the one thing i can't draw. i'm excited to meet them and talk with them though. so, today was pretty boring/bad. i think the only good thing about the day was yoga-naiga in gym..i love it. i feel so relaxed and happy after it..and i needed it today because after gym i had to sit in art and listen to mrs weitz read us some bullshit she wrote about drawing a portrait. i hate how whenever she talks about art she has to make some sort of reference to her own and how its so amazing. "even though some of my pieces have sold for $10,000..." and then she replaced all the students art in the glass cases outside the media center with her own. what teacher does that? i don't even like her art. its so conservative and straight foward. she paints things how they look. thats all..no style of her own..and thats why when you bring her a piece you're really proud of, but it isnt exactly what she considers art to be, she tells you 'well, you have a B right now but if you change this this and this, you can have an a.' ugh. i miss mr carey. so the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. it just kicked in that me and steve's desert biome project is due tomorrow for environmental science so i've been spending the whole afternoon doing that.. steve's supposed to help me around 7..
its going to be really cool, though..i decided that theres going to be a front layer which is the "daytime desert" because deserts are more active at night, so i made a slit in the top of the box so i could pull that out and behind it is a night time back drop and all the animals. also, since the stars are really bright in the desert i think i'm going to poke holes in the back and stick christmas lights in it. i put sand in it and then my mom bought me a mini cactus and i think i'll go to michaels tonight to get mini flowers for the desert flowers or whatever. it will be good. of course, if i wasnt such a procrastinator and i started this a week ago, it'd be better but oh well..
also, my final copy of my english paper is due tomorrow but i dont know if i'll do it because i'm going to be in the media center during that period.
and then theres algebra homework...and history. i suck. my life is so boring. i wish i had real stuff to bullshit entries about. i just like writing in here because it helps me break down the day/my life better.
another cool thing about today i guess was weitz read us a little bit of the velvetine (spelling?) rabbit and i love that book. but after she read the thing that she wrote, i looked over at Madalyn (the special ed lady for some kid in our class) and just rolled my eyes and she started laughing.
crazy.
i'm kind of in limbo. i get really sad because sometimes i miss things i used to have. during yoga-naiga, you're supposed to make resolutions to yourself.. last time mine was "i'll stop chasing love" and this time it was "i'll hold onto those i love." hm. im not sure. sometimes when i'm going through things it seems like they'll last forever and then.. they're over in a blink of the eye. and afterwards, i miss it. even if at the time it seemed like it was bad. im not sure. all i know is that since june i've been writing our initials everywhere and i havent stopped yet.
boo.
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