| Current mood: |  anxious |
| Current music: | Monstrous Regiment::Terry Pratchett |
Dear god in heaven I hate writing 'I'm not coming into class today' emails! Next to writing to R. it's gotta be the hardest thing. I'm writing to Professor Levene to say I'm not coming (for my fortnightly humiliation). I felt really ill yesterday, but I am fibbing a bit today. However, the whole point of going to see him today was to show him an essay draft that I was going to write yesterday but couldn't. I just think it's better to have something to show him on Monday than nothing at all to show him today. Like I said yesterday - my body just has the worst timing. I have an undiagnosed pain in my lower stomach which I've never had before - so quite interesting!
Now this month I really do have to go to the doctor's and see about getting put on the pill. That's probably what they'll offer to make my period pain better - that's what they offered last time. I suppose I'd have to go on it anyway eventually so best to get it over with. So that's my fun job for the week after next. Next week I have to write my essay. I have to write my other essay for the following four weeks, but I also don't have to go to Leeds. Yay!
I think that the only thing that can make me ill is me. I think that stress made me ill last time - I've never had flu before or even anything remotely like it. The only thing that ever kept me off school was my period pain, which has always been nasty. It's not just some random aching, we're talking can't walk, can't think, can't move. Need hot water (bath, hot water bottle) and breathing exercises or singing to make it bearable. It really knocks me out for the whole day. It's been kinda better recently, but I think it lessens or worsens depending on how I feel myself - right now I'm very stressed and that can't possibly help with muscle cramp based pain!
Anyway. Off to the doctors soon, and not going to Leeds today, which alone is a huge relief. Every other Friday I get that dread feeling you get before exams - for about six hours. Not fun.
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