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i havent done a lot yet today and as u can see, im pretty bored so im updating this. i woke up at 11 with the worst stomach pains ever. i went 2 the bathroom and threw up twice. i swear i have morning sickness but since i had my period 2 weeks ago and havent had sex since that, that i guess leaves it impossible. in fact...now that i think about it...i havent had sex in forever :( ive been with 2 girls and 2 boyz.
the last time i did do it was at this foam party (about 3 months ago) that was going on at zero gravity, a teenage club like forty mins. away. i went with anna, travis, killian, howie, and these two other ppl im sorta friends with but they are more friends of howie's michael carlos and michael swietzka. i hit it off with this girl gina and we started talking. i left the club early with her, michael c., michael s., and travis. we took two cars, howie drove one and travis drove the other, so we didnt feel bad about leaving killian, howie, and anna there. they were cool w/ it. neway, travis was driving around looking for a food place and he drives a big suv. so gina and i start fooling around in the back and when the 3 boys found a taco bell, they got out but yea gina and i were only hungry for one thing :) so thankfully the guyz knew what we were up to and respectfully stayed goofing off inside taco bell while her and i fucked. i felt so trashy bc it was basically a one night stand and not to mention it was in the back of travis's suv lol.
before that, i had been having sex with travis cuz we dated about 2 months in the fall and we continued to have sex for about a month after we broke up.
before THAT, the spring and beginning of summer of that last year, i went out with my first and so far only actual girlfriend. she was 21 @ the time, lived in her own pad 15 mins away. it was a hard thing 2 keep up since my mom doesnt know about my sexuality and even if she did, she'd rather keel over and die than let me go out with someone who was 21 and living on their own while i was a sophomore in hs at the time. just when i was starting 2 really love her and feel for her, i caught her cheating on me w/ some other girl. it was awful, she had given me a copy of the key to her apt. and i had just gotten my license so i borrowed my mom's car, drove over with anna, and walked in 2 her scrambling around naked in her bedroom w/ some ho. so needless 2 say, i broke up w/ her.
before THAT, i never had sex. well in the beginning of 7th grade, while i was still living in clearwater, i had this friend that i had had since about second grade. his name was tommy clipp and he and i, w/ our raging new hormones lol, started sometimes messing around. we slowly took it farther and farther until one day we actually did have sex. just that once and of course it hurt like hell, so i kept putting him off and putting him off and then finally, we moved.
so god all this talk of sex and especially of me not getting any in a long-ass time is killing me. i do own a vibrator but even i have standards :) , so i only use it in real desperite cases. like possibly now. but yea, the rest of my day first!! so yea, i went to the health club and worked out until about 3. came home, showered. mom called and said that str8 from work shes going to the hotel to visit w/ my aunts again while they're here from paris. and she's probably spending the night again. meaning shes probably going out n gettin wasted again lol. thats cool tho, i have the house all to myself and i relish it. so i ordered chinese and went skinny dipping in the backyard. i didnt hear the delivery guy pull up and since i was outside i didnt hear the doorbell so when i came back inside, there was a phone message from the place, pretty angry. lol so i drove (it took me FOREVER and tons of baby-sitting to save up 4 my crappy lil '02 dodge intrepid) and picked up the food at the restaurant. got a ton of nasty looks from the ppl working there. oh well, fuck them, see if i ever order from their crappy lil grease palace again. came home, pigged out on chinese, travis called. anna hasnt called yet, but i expect 2 talk 2 her later tonight, im sure shes going to call and rave or bitch all about this all-day date w/ dean. this brings me to now. travis is over and watching tv and tryin to figure out something 4 us 2 do tonight. im chillin here, making funny faces at him :) , and talking online. so i'll update later tonight if anything intersting happenz, if we actually do go out newhere. ttyl.
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