| Current mood: | boxed in |
| Current music: | piano music |
i gotta go...
i am really feeling shitty tonight....and you guys are going to think that i hate my family(which is not true) but once again i have to get out of hear or i am going to snap. it is different lately because i am not working right now i am just sitting hear doing nothing all day. i feel like anything would be an improvement (except Blacks). but other then that i would do just about anything. i have someone who told me that they had work for me for about a month while i wait for the summer to start. that would be great if it worked out but i am still waiting for him to call me. but until then i am just sitting around being grumpy...nobody likes grumpy people. today i was doing something that i have to do all the time because i am at home right now. something that i hate doing like i hate a good song cut short. and i had this though of "why are you still here then!" and i kind of though for a second...why am i still here. i have about a month before any summer job starts and i have a little bit of money. what the hell am i still doing here. so i think that if this guy doesnt call me by the weekend then i am going to take off first thing next week. i dont really know where to or for how long but i think that if i stay here i am just going to end up depressed or just really unhappy. i have always wanted to hitchhike somewhere really far so i think that now is as good a time as any. one thing that is good about hitchhiking is that it is cheap. so that is the plan...until then i will be sitting here watching movies and reading. doesnt sound to exciting(unless you are mark) i even bought a fiction novel this week. it is the first novel that i have voluntarily read in my life. but its going well so far...its called "girlfriend in a coma"...it is a little depressing but i kinda like that sometimes.
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