|Current mood:|| sad|
|Current music:||three libras//apc|
here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded
Things were really good for a while. I was seriously..the happiest I've been in such a long time. But now everything has completely gone to shit. I feel so helpless, because I know it's over, and I know there's nothing I can do. Even if I could do something to make it all better, things..wouldn't actually get better. It was all a big fucking lie. I don't think he ever really cared about me like he said. He didn't care half as much as I did.
It's sad that all good things have to end.
And it's also sad when things you think are good...aren't.
I know I don't need him to be happy, and I know I'll be okay even though things are over. Thinking about us not being together isn't even the bad part. I just hate looking back on everything that was so great, and everything that made me so happy. Everything that made me think he cared. I'm probably just blowing this way out of proportion..but it hurts. It really fucking hurts.
I probably won't be updating this for a long time.