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i never knew you, you never knew me
It is easy to say isn’t it?
“I don’t love you anymore, good bye.”
It’s Jane Jones, simply Jane Jones.
I hope it’s as true as it sounds. When one decides that the lunacy would stop, that the obsession, the paranoia, the phalanx position, the battlestar scralatchtica in one’s mind would come to an end, what happens to all the spoils? His favorite bands, his favorite songs, his rich brat car, his midnight blue sneakers – I wouldn’t know what to do with all these useless pieces of memory. I’d throw them all away and store codal provisions in my brain instead. But I couldn’t. These are exactly the sort of things that cling. You fall in love with an ass and you smell the rotten stench for years.
Why couldn’t he just be decent? I know he can’t speak very well, and his social skills aren’t exactly the most charming, but common human decency is the bare minimum requirement. And he couldn’t even meet that. If a full grown man with seemingly exceptional qualities would still turn out to be a complete jerk, I would begin to sit down and rethink my heterosexuality very carefully. It’s just very frustrating. It’s as if you’re holding out your white linen spread for some kid to spill spaghetti sauce all over.
My merchant chinaman, there is just no more room in my life for another one of your kind. I had hoped that at the very least, if we clearly aren’t Nancy and Dean in “baby, it’s cold outside,” we could be friends. But circumstances put us where we could never happen. Oblivion will sustain you, I know, so my anger is of no moment, not today, not ever.
What was David Gray saying in that nine-minute song of his? Oh, yes:
“I never knew you,
You never knew me
Say hello, Good bye;
Say hello and wave Good bye,”
Let’s get back to being strangers.
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