| Current mood: |  melancholy |
| Current music: | come away with me, norah jones |
what is even going on
for real, i dont know what is up with me... i am feeling down and seriously blah... i keep thinking about annie and scott and hanna and how i dont know any of them at all any more. annie was my absolute amazingly bestest best friend sent from God to be my angel that i never ever thought would leave me... but our friendship wasnt as strong as we thought i guess.... i must be so irritating to her because i keep trying to get ahold of her on IM... and scott... whoa... he started dating jami, got engaged, bought a ring and then they ended it, all in a matter of weeks... he got a new job, new truck and is moving out of his apartment in may... i seriously miss him like crazy and i'm sure i never even cross his mind... i want to call him so badly but i think its just to a point of weirdness where i've just waited too long.... and then there is hanna... i feel like i have been such a miserabley bad friend to her in the past and i know i cant change that but i wish i could let her know how much i care about her and how much she really does mean to me.... but i dont know how or what to do....
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i am sick up to HERE with all the coupledom happening around me!! it is making me want to barf all over... honestly........ agk i cant take it
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school and studying can bite me, i have a headache, i'm not going to do my work.... what happened to me?? i didnt go running today or yesterday and now i'm not getting my work done... honestly
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what would i do without my stimpe though?? she is amazing... i love her so much -- i'm incredibley appreciative of her friendship. she is so real and fun and crazy and funny and and i love doing stuff with her and just hanging out not doing anything... i hope we keep getting to be better friends. she rocks so hard!!!!!!!!!!
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i miss josh. a lot... i dont know how to talk about this topic.
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well i heart adam and tim (who has the same bday as me!! GO 3-15!! woo!!!) and i love it when me and stimp hang out with them... i feel like they're my only real friends here... but we barely hang out... hopefully that can change soon...
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worship tonight was awesome... i cried my insides out which was totally necessary but i didnt even really get enough out... i feel like i could cry for days before i would be cleansed of everything wrong... but it hit me that i need to be patient with myself as i struggle with my own humanity... Jesus is bigger and greater than everything i am and i need to stop trusting in the familiarity of my own boundaries and learn to trust in the fact that He has none...
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Its all about You, Jesus
All this is for You, for Your glory and Your fame
Its not about me, as if You should do things my way
You alone are God and i surrender
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