| Current mood: | confused |
| Current music: | Thank You Angel |
Dear Angel,
I have known you for 3 years now, watching you from a distance. Oh no, not in a stalker way so don't be to worried. In a you amazing me with how you cope with everything around you kinda way. All the sluts, the liars, the fakes every bullshit your friends put you through for being yourself ...yet your still you.
I really want to tell you that I admire you, that you complete my day when you smile but I cant. There are many reasons why I must stay silent.
Why would you talk to a girl like me? Came from a broken home, while you had everything at your reach. I laugh with my friend when we attempt to hardcore dance in a park while your hanging out with girls and booze all weekend.
Would you really rather be with me? No, probably not.
I want to be there for you when you get back from your work. Because we all know your hoe of a girlfriend right now is cheating on you. She broke up with you, and you don't even know it. How bad is that? Just to clear her mind so she can go make out with random guys while your teaching little kid. I don't know what to say to that.
I really wish you knew how I felt. How all me and my friend feel. We know you mean well when you try and talk to us but your friend shake there heads at you. We know you try and seek the little bit of comfort from us when you want to try something different and we say 'go for it' your smile lights up the whole God damn room, but then you turn and see your friends looking at you saying 'don't even' and that smile disappears and I don't know what to do. I really don't.
You should be given a girl who wants you back just as much as you want her. And friends who would kill for you like mine would for me. A girl who will give you her heart while you give yours in return. I'm sad to say that she's not me. As much as I would love to be her for you, I don't think I can do it. I admire you soooo much, so freakin much. But I have this little tiny problem called trust. I wish you could be willing to try with me but you need that girl who will give you everything and I'm pretty sure I will give you hard times. I know deep down I really want to be with you, the one to make you smile, for you to write me songs and no one else but I know I cant. I dont think I wouldnt beable to trust you with every single one of my secrets...
I had to write this for you, but I couldn't send it.
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