dear adrian,
why do you push me away? i know you get stressed out sometimes, but we've spent 2 and a half years building a love that i thought was much stronger than this. we've been through so much more than this, remember how young we were, how much we learned, how much we grew together? remember our future? how you were going to propose to me? i know you didn't forget, you promised me so many times that you'd never forget. remember when i was scared and you told me "But we're so close.." well what the hell happened to that? you always told me that no matter what you said NO MATTER what happens between us wed be okay, so i wait. i'm so loyal, maybe too loyal, but i love you. youre just that kind of guy that a girl wants to hold on to, you never yelled at me not even when i was being a complete bitch, you always told me everything even though you didn't have to just to make sure id never be upset, where is that guy? i know hes in there somewhere. we've been through this before, you came back to me, you said you realized what an amazing girl you had and how sorry you were. i can only hope you realize that again, cause i have tried to let go, i'm not sure if that's gonna be possible. how can you be so rude, so cold, when i know that really isn't you? you said you hate when you get like this, cant you let me in? cause life right now is just so, bland. i miss that boy who adores me, the one that calls me his goddess, you probably don't know that you're the only guy who has ever made me feel so beautiful, so loved, when its taken away i just feel like a different person. i don't want to hang out with my friends anymore, i just wanna cry all the time cause everything reminds me of you. how can you ask me to let go? when there is no reason to? i begged you for a reason, you don't have one because you know we should be together. you've told me not to contact you, i don't know if i can do this, and i don't mean the not contacting you, i mean life without you, i cant do it. you don't love someone like we did and then just let it go for no reason, its just not possible for me. i've never loved anyone like i love you, and i never will. the hardest part is having a bad day, and youre not there for me.
the girl who will never forget.
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