|Current mood:|| sick|
|Current music:||random pieces of songs that are going through my head|
I wonder....should I slowly disapate from everyones lives? It doesn't seem that I can ever have true happiness because if I am happy, it ends up pissing someone off, and than they piss me off which kills my happy moods. Sam and Lys were complaining about what I have posted in this blurty of mine and in the profile of mine. They started to piss me off....but I wont stop talking to them because I am not that way. They are going to have to constantly piss me off for me to stop talking to them. I don't know what to do anymore. It's all so confusing. Ya know, if people like Lys want to complain about what is in my blurty, they can go right ahead. If they don't like it, than too bad for them and they can stop reading. It's not like anyone cares about what I write in here anyway.
I have just realized, that my life has been going down the drain since I met Kat. Even though it has, I still like her, a lot. I don't think it would matter how bad my life gets, I would still love her. I started going out with Alex, than I met Kat. I started to like Kat, and soon she became up there with Alex. My love for Alex started to die, and I started to fuck up a lot when she wasn't around. After that, we broke up. A little while later, I went out with Kat, but she had started soccer and was in Drama, so I knew I couldn't be with her much until Drama was over. Now that Drama is over, she has begun to do things she would do in the summer. With her friends. I just don't know what to do anymore....I really wish I did...I want to cry right now, but I can't. I don't know why, I just can't. I'm starting to feel sick now too. ...............................god damnit all........