|Current mood:|| bouncy|
|Current music:||Anything But Ordinary - Avril Lavigne|
^_^ I am happy. Happy I am. I am happy! ......That was really random. I finally downloaded PSP7. I made an icon for myself because I need help from Molly (who is probably sleeping), Sam (who is at school) or Li (who is either sleeping or at school). Damn me and my getting up early. But today, I got up early happily! I feel really random right now....I should spread my happyness out to everyone in the world!!!! .....Or maybe I will just keep it to myself becuase it is not very often that I get happy like this. Most of my life, I have been too busy either trying to hide myself from everyone or I have been taking in peoples pain. I never gave myself any time to be happy. But now...now I have friends that are like me, are interested in the same things as me and like the same music....well, kinda. People tell me things. Its kinda weird, but kinda not. After someone gets to konw me, they will start telling me secrets about themselves that they don't tell anyone else. Or they tell me things that they dont want other people to know about. And they trust me because I don't tell anyone. Sam, Yukito, Kat, Lys, Li, all of my friends, they have told me stuff that I have not told anyone, and will not tell anyone. They trust me and I will never let them down. No matter how angry I could possibly get at them, I would never tell anyone what they tell me unless they say it is ok to tell other people. I take in their pain, and live on with my life. What I have done is made their life a little easier, and my life a little harder. Sharing memories isn't always a good thing, but it generally makes you life easier. I don't share my memories because I dont have many memories of my own to share. They aren't all that exciting anyway. My life has been boring ever since I have started school. Another reason why I dont have many memories, is because I don't want to remember my past. I try as hard as I can to forget everything, yet some things, I can't live down. People say stuff about me that isn't even true. I am too far away right now to do anything about it, but soon, I will be able to fix the mistakes that I have made in the past...at least the ones I can fix. Prove to others that I am not an idiot, prove to them that I am not weak, and prove to them that I am not someone who can be used for their own humor.