*hey jealousy
*jenn came and picked me up from schoolll!!!!! hell yehh!! i havent seen that girl since december..and it sucks really bad bc shes my bestest friend everrrrr and it sucks not being able to see her ever day like i used to..and my parents..well my dad and stepmom dont help much either with them not letting me see her..so i have to sneak around to see her..and i hate lying to them bc ive lied to the so much..i promised my dad when i got caught driving that i would stop lying..and that didnt work..bc i just kept on lying to them..and when i got caught smoking he was like thats it you cant see jenn anymore..and it sucks really bad..i wish he could realize how bad it is not being able to see her..and last night he gave me this long ass talk about how im disrespectful and i dont do anything around the house when i do sooo much around here..and how i disrespect bj..when i get along better with her than i do my dad..and my dad sits there and says you dont know how good you have it and everything..i dont have it good!! i would love for my dad to come home and just talk to me and be like so how was your day? and i could talk to him like i talk to my mom..i tell my mom everything..and im glad i do bc it helps me alot..and my stepdad does soo much for me that my dad wouldnt..but if i ever told my dad what harry does for me he would flip and ask why i do stuff with him..and he complains that if i ever needed money i should go to him and not to my aunts or my mom..but i go to them bc my dad doesnt give it to me! so whats the point..i wish things were different..i wish things could change..i wish he could change and be a better father to me..bc right now hes not =( *anywayssss...this weekend is dedicated to sean!! hah..i absolutely miss hanging out with sean..last year we hung out every weekend..usually quadding is his backyard..and it was soo much fun..his parents were like mine..they did everything for me..i love that family so much! and i miss being with sean..we hung out once this entire school year..that was it..so im happy we are gunna spend the weekend together..were gunna go to the movies tonight and see tourqe..which looks fuckin awsome! and then tomorrow were gunna go to the mall ((again for like the 3x in 2 days!)) and then go to his house and dinner and such..im so excited! and monday we dont have schoolllll!!! woo-fucking-hoo! ill sit on my ass all day..and watch all in the family and the price is right..bc they are awsomeee!!! lol *the semi is in 2 weeks! very excitedd..me and val ford have the same dress..but its all good! yeh and thats about it..im gunna go get ready and watch tv bc im a lazy ass!!! peaceeeeeee
