So, about my other big news that's happened since I've written last. I have a boyfriend now! Long story short-it's a guy from home who's been 'chasing' me for a long time, and finally I'm not attached to anybody else, so I'm free to actually let something happen. I know it seems pretty soon after I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, but I think that was over long before it was over. I just didn't want to admit it, and was trying to hang on as long as I could because I like the security of having a boyfriend. I know this guy will be so much better for me though. 1: this time he's actually my age (!) 2: he was interested in me enough to 'chase' me even when I wasn't really showing any interest in him (and he didn't give up!) 3: he seems to be really set on having a long term relationship, not just a short term 'fling' 4: he seems to not be focused just on the physical stuff-he's actually interested in me as a person, and my opinions and thoughts (not that the physical stuff is bad, but if that's the only thing that you're focused on, everything else seems to disappear, and you lose all other connection) I think this is awesome, and may actually lead somewhere, because this is the first time that I didn't really 'put myself out there' wanting the guy to chase me, or be interested in me-he actually came after me of his own free will, without me having to flirt or chase him in any way. It seems like that's what I was always doing with other relationships, that I was the one doing the chasing, and when I stopped doing that, that everything just died out. Well, we'll just have to wait and see where it goes!