|Current mood:|| tired|
hello, my name is Ashley. i'm 20. i've been hurting myself for about 10 years. i'm not exaclty sure what i'm doing updating. i need someone, i need something, i'm just not sure what. i have no one to talk to about any of this. all the firends that i used to have for this sort of thing, i guess have all grown out of it.
i've been in limbo for the last 3 days. there's no season, my house doesnt have one inside. i havent been to work in 5 days and i have no idea how i'm going to go tomorrow. i cut myself on friday and my boyfriend found them. he always says if i dont stop, he's going to break up with me over it. i told him to go ahead and just do it, he didnt. it really bothers me because i always think he's going to tell my mom. she thinks i stopped doing it 4 or 5 years ago. i dont know what's been going on lately but the part that scares me is that i dont care... i dont want to do anything, i just want to sleep.