|Current music:||Every Time I Die - Emergency Broadcast Syndrome|
Is any of this making sense? This isn't really happening!!!
So this is my first entry. I have been comparing my life to the likes of a car wreck lately. Nothing is going right for me, I am doing my best but these new surroundings are not so nice to me. Every time something looks like it will work out, bam I am reminded that ever since the big move my life has officially sucked. I think somedays is it really worth it to go on like this. I mean it would be so much easier to just pull the fucking trigger already. Sure the clean up would suck for my roommate, The bathroom would be out of order for awhile. I would try to keep it clean but I can't make any promises. Not sure how steady my aim would be when I am seeing pictures of my boring, dull, un eventful, and non existent life flash before my eyes. I'm not really going to do this ever I am just saying it would really make things alot easier. One more thing, I can't beleive I let a girl screw me over again. This wasn't supposed to happen, I was trying to stay away. 3 years of no stress and not having to worry about having stomache aches from stress down the shitter. What was I seriously thinking? I mean really did I need to complicate my life anymore. The thing that sucks is I say I don't really care, obviously I do if I can't stop thinking about her. She dropped me like a bad habit. Shit happens I guess, I'll move on I am sure somehow.