So I skipped class today, and drove around aimlessly for pretty much the whole day. You know what, I dont care. I needed a break from class and my life. It seems to be an endless pattern of the same daily trials and tribulations. I'm sick of having to figure people out, and over-analyzing everything because of something that I may have done to offend some one. I'm sorry that I'm not perfect. I'm only human. I make mistakes. But I do try. I try to make everyone happy. I try to see the best in people. I try to always be right, and I do admit that I hate being wrong. Who doesn't? And sometimes I have to realize that things aren't always meant to work out. Sometimes I am wrong about people. And sometimes I get hurt. Often I get hurt. I'm one of those people that others can take advantage of. I'm a people pleaser. I will overbook myself because i try to make room for everyone, and then it bites me in the ass. I somtimes gossip. Admit it, so do you. That bites me in the ass as well. I have a best friend. I actually have had more best friends than most people in a lifetime. I'm one of those people that always has a best friend. Never the same one, though. Something always happens. It's never my fault though, I swear it's not me. Ok, maybe it's me. Maybe it's because I can only take people's shit for so long, until shit hits the fan. Whatever. Maybe I'm the problem and I'm in denial. It's all in the past now anyway. I'm going to start being a better person. Maybe go to church once in a while and join a charity or something. I wish I had more goals. I float my way through life. I don't know how i ever made it to college. I've never been the kind of person to use a planner, I always have one though. I make it seem like I'm organized but I never have a clue what's going on. I'm a clueless blonde at heart. I think my purpose in life is to make others smile. That's all I'm really good at. Blah. I need sleep. Peace
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