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Speechless
I actually found his sgboy profile when I was surfing profiles last night. My heart nearly stopped when I saw his pictures. For a moment there I couldn't think, couldn't breathe.
Why? Because I never expected him to have a profile on sgboy, furthermore have his pictures blatently put there for all to see. I was shocked. Then when I read the things he said on his profile, I got scared/angry/sad all at the same time. The types he is into, the fetishes he has... I never knew, and that's what really got to me. Even his "relationship status" was put as "rather not say"... (Rather not say??? What the hell is THAT supposed to mean?) But the icing has got to be when under the heading "seeking for", he actually put "sex". I nearly died. Serious.
Then the next day I plucked up enough courage to go tell him that I saw his profile. I asked him why he put such things and he said it was for fun, to see what kind of people would msg him. That he was lazy to choose the options. Woah, I really dint know wat to believe anymore. His profile stated that he was on sgboy like 2 months before we even got together. I was scared. But I told myself to just ignore it and tell him, as a friend, that his profile is disturbing for people who know him. And he promptly changed some things on his profile. When I read it again, I sighed - at least it now looks like a profile I know.
Do you think he really created the original profile for fun? Or was it really the true him? I dunno.
"When You Left I Lost A Part Of Me."
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