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All Things Are But Transient
Has it been that long? Anyway, i finally got to watch Star Wars III today. I love love love the C.G.I.s. So bloody cool.
I have not felt this way since the time I left TK choir almost 2 years ago. And this time, the feeling came back with a vengence. The farewell dinner was a particularly emotional one. People whom I never expected actually started tearing. It is immensely sad to leave the choir after two short years. I will have to recalibrate my life again. The first saturday after the farewell dinner felt so empty, usually I would be rushing down with kY to Siglap CC for choir prac. But instead I woke up and stared out my window, wondering how am I going to spend my saturdays. Oh please don't tell me to study, at least not now.
I don't want to leave the choir. It feels as though this departure marks something deeper, that I'm not just leaving the choir but losing something else as well. I don't want affirmation of my loss. It is so unfair that it all lasted so fleetingly. I am so scared to let go, so afraid I would never find another one like him. It feels as though the chance of anything of this sort happening again in this life is one in a billion. That's how much he means to me. But in this reality of life, I'm forced to let it go. Slowly and painfully, but certainly.
"All Things Are But Transient"
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