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| Current music: | Chamber Singers - O Magnum Mysterium |
Just Overwhelmed
A people person. That's what i think i am. I feel pretty alright when i'm ard people. But when i'm alone, my mind starts to wander. And it will invariably wander to him. A million and one "what if"s pop into my head, threatening to overwhelm me. I wished I could climb into a time machine and live those days over again. People ard me keep saying i would find someone better. Even today, ironically, during the TV serial, one of the dialogues went something like, "if you would just put the past behind and open up ur heart, you would surely find someone better."
Perhaps that's true, and given my past experiences, i would think it true too. But then again, the experience this time was just so radically different, so dream-like, so good it was almost unreal.
Yeah, unreal, that's wat it is now. All but memories playing out in my mind again and again, so afraid i would lose them because memories are all that i have left of those times.
Sometimes, i dont wan CCAs to end. Because all the times we go out these days is after CCA. If not for CCA, i dont think i can get the chance to talk to him. So we'll just see what happens after we step down from CCA. Somehow, i feel that we would drift apart. Maybe that's just the pessimistic me. Ya. I shd stop being me.
"If Only I Could Turn Back Time."
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