| Current mood: | Un-Trustworthy |
| Current music: | Limp Bizkit, No Trust |
So What the Fuck?!
i wish what i did did not matter to anyone
i wish i wasnt so important to ppl
that way i would never let anyone down
maybe i shouldnt exist
Holy Fuck. This is the first worst night since i got back from St. Croix. First night I am ragingly pissed. First night I am fucking depressed. First night i want to punch the wall until my fist bleeds and my bones break. I am pissed. Anyone I dislike is lucky they are not around me, and anyone around is lucky they are not annoying the fuck outta me. I am pissed. I am even more pissed because I am pissed for the first time in a long time....so that equals some pretty pissed of shit. What the fuck. I hate people....seriously. What the fuck, i dont even know what say. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That didnt settle it. I feel like I need a whole pack of cigarettes, I feel like I need a whole 30 rack of beer. I feel like i need to dissapear for a whole fucking year. I feel like i should start taking my pills again, and THATS A BAD THING!
Whoopdy fucking dooo! [radio edit] I didnt know that was a horrible crime to commit. I prolly should have been honest about it, but i DID NOT LIE, and i had my reasons to not be honest about it. So right, here is a PRIME example of why I dont trust people. Trust, such a mother fucking ugly word.
Tonight makes me want to finish the poem i was writing about trust called "The Knife"
I am a sucky friend though, in efforts of trying not to hurt people, i end up hurting them. This is why I suck. And my lips a chapped! GREAT! (Thought Id try to throw some humor into this depressing entry? Did it work? Huh? Eh? Come on!)
I hate talking online. I hate drama. And I hate bullshit.
Its ending up better than before. Gnight.
"I dont trust nobody."
-Limp Bizkit
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