| Current mood: | Screaming inside; outside ok |
| Current music: | Numb piano - Linkin Park |
...x.x.o...Waiting...x.x.o...
.....I miss Jared. I hate leaving him every night the way we have to. When I'm in class; drawing chairs with striped fabric on them, making shapes with foamcore, talking about stuff that no one cares about with a teacher that has worn the same outfit to every class, making slide shows with Jared's pictures, or talking about monkeys and the way different people live...I'm thinking of him. I can't wait to go visit him.
.....I dreamt of him last night. I dreamt he asked me to marry him. It was odd... I fell don't, started crying, and said no I can't. Thats when I fire drill happened....
.....I've been trying to keep busy with class homework, Return To Laughter, or games... doesn't work very well, but oh well. I have a Jared playlist... songs he sing...If you don't get it I MISS HIM.... I'm ok without Luke (my kitty, which is now making me feel worse cause I haven't thought about him and now I want him too). I'm ok without my parents, they hate me anyways. And I'm ok without Danielle and my friends cause I never saw them anyways. But it's different without Jared, I'm not ok cause he's not ok.
.....He said he'd wait as long as it takes, but idk.
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