I am so bad at being independant. I put all other women to shame. I can't do a damn thing for myself. I just add something to my list of things to do and then stress about it for weeks until someone holds my hand through the task. For example, I misplaced my OSAP loan form somewhere in my apartment a couple months ago. Instead of immediately saying "Oh ok, I lost it, I'll go apply for another." I said, "Oh, I'll look for it tomorrow." Which never happened. So the two times I actually did look for it and almost die of fright I didn't do the responsible thing of going to the Student Loan office and talking to a woman there who knows me by my first name and is friends with my older sister. Ya, that's the other thing. When I finally DID go to get it replaced, that woman helped me and smiled the whole time. And my best friend Kerry was in the room with me. I swear, if I ever have to undergo some sort of medical procedure or hear some life altering news, I'll have Kerry sitting next to me. And today I'm going on this trip to Guelph (which is 2 hours West of Toronto where I live for all you people who have no idea what I'm talking about) to see my friend Lio and I'm absolutely petrified of taking the bus by myself. Just because I have to take the regular everyday bus to the subway, the subway to the big bus terminal, and then the bus itself possibly having to transfer. And... my shower isn't working. So I can't leave until I wash my hair. So essentially I'm a big whiney baby that doesn't deserve to go anywhere.
Meh. I'll probably get screwed over today and just go tomorrow with John. That's right. "The Big Strong Male" type guy who will protect me from old chinese women and guys who sell bus tickets at that strange little corner store.
*rolls eyes* I HAVE to stop being so dependant on others.
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