|Current music:||Mr. Brightside- The Killers|
so much shtuff.....
it's funny that i last wrote on january 7th because the day after that was a huge one in my life. i have some errands to run, but i'm not ready to leave the house yet, so i'm killing some time by updating.
JAN 8- today i suffered two mental breakdowns. by mental breakdown, i cried uncontrollably for a long period of time and even held a knife in my hand thinking about how much i hated my life during one of them. the second was at a party at a friend's house. i apparently snapped and went off on everyone. i don't remember that much of what happened. i had been drinking and feeling like crap. apparently, it took three people to tackle me on the stairs because i was running up to the kitchen to get a knife to slit my throat. i woke up in my car in front of a house i'd never seen before.
JAN 9- i had had enough. my life was going nowhere in evansville, but sinking further into the rut i had built. i turned in my request to transfer to an indianapolis area red lobster.
JAN 11- i turn in my apartment vacancy form, giving them my one month's notice, that'd i be gone by the end of FEb.
JAN 13- after my ordeal, mom came down to visit. we celebrated christmas. it was a good time.
JAN 25- i felt like crap. it was my day off and spent the whole day in bed. what was only a little virus just wouldn't leave me alone. i was sick for an entire week, having gone to work for two shifts and leaving during one of them to go to the hospital. i was hoping for the flu, but it was only a virus. the said i couldn't go back to work for 3 days, so i spent them in bed. no one called or dropped by to check on me, except people in indianapolis.
JAN 29- i turn in my two weeks notice during a mandatory server meeting at red lobster.
FEB 15- my last day at red lobster.
FEB 22- natasha had her baby in the morning, so while doing final errands, i dropped by to visit her and wally. that night was my farewell karaoke show at hog wild. it was a fucked up time. mom and ray came down to attend (ray videotaped it, sparky was the host). not many people showed up, but i didn't care. i had fun with it, and i was ready to tell everyone good-bye. my song list.... (atleast, this is what i think it was)
Yesterday Once More- the Carpenters
Your Love- The Outfield
She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5
Fat Lip- Sum 41
Right Now- SR71
Ocean Avenue- Yellowcard
The Remedy- Jason Mraz
The Reason- Hoobastank
The Last Song- All American Rejects
Here's to the Night- Eve 6
You've Got a Friend- James Taylor
All the Things She Said- T.A.T.U.
FEB 23- i moved to carmel, IN.
MAR 8- job hunt continues. i had two interviews and three job offers today. i ended up turning down the waiting tables job at the Bridgewater Country Club (which would've started Apr. 1), i accepted a temp job with McGraw Hill (staring April 19), and i went to the Red Lobster in Castleton.
MAR 9- i started working at Red Lobster. they were in no hurry to get me rolling.
MAR 24- i make my indy area karaoke debut at Nippers singing By the Way- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
MAR 27- i breathe in a sigh of relief from Easter Weekend at work, but finish the week making a record $650.
APR 10- yesterday was my last day full time at Red Lobster. and a good thing too. just two weeks after my record setting week, i finished this week at only $250. damn spring break and warm weather.
what's in the near future for me.....
APR 12- i'm going to the Indianapolis Ice game with Lisa. We got front row seats next to the bench. sweet!
APR 13- i'm working on getting tickets to the Pacers game with mom to see Reggie play live one last time.
APR 14- i'll be going down to Evansville to visit friends
APR 15- marks the 5 year anniversary of my fraternity's chartering
APR 16- Fiji Pig Dinner
APR 19- as mentioned above, i start my new job.
well, that's an update. who knows when my next one will be, or where i will be, or what i'll be doing.