| Current mood: |  bitchy |
A deadly secret only I suffer to know.
African Sleeping Sickness has now become American-ized. Either that or I am dying from some horrible disease where you sleep yourself to death. Is that possible? I swear, I sleep 12 hours a day yet I am still tired no matter what. Not to mention I am PMSing horribly. This is such a lovely combination, and I wish someone would just shoot me.
I didn't go to school today, which was nice. My mom woke me up today and told me I was sick, then she called me out. I just bummed around the whole day feeling fine, eating pretzels, staring at the TV, and IMing alicia making fun of her for being in school, while I was out for no apparent reason. It was great. I have been suffering from the worst cramps, and I swear that if I wake up with cramps again, or I get my period tonight I am not going to school.
So, I've been doing lots of thinking. But I'm always thinking since I usually have no one to talk to. This whole business of liking someone, it's a total waste of time. It serves no purpose whatsoever other than to weird the person you like out, hurt you, and kill friendships. So I have decided, with this whole matt-liking-business, that I am through. I believe I will dig a hole for myself and cut off all human-contact, just so there is nothing to tempt me anymore. Temptation is a bitch. So is infatuation. So I am giving up. I quit. You can only pile up so much shit before you have to shovel some off. If that makes any sense. It's just that I have so many problems right now going on inside of me, that this added one doesn't even need to be a problem. Oh, well. I swear I'm not as psychotic as I sound. I think.
God, you know what pisses me off? People always suggest that you do things once you already have your mind made up. It's like, if I was going to do what you want me to do...I would have done it by now, don't you think? Like I'll say that I'm going to go somewhere, and someone else will say, "well why don't you go here?" IF I WANTED TO DO THAT, I WOULD HAVE DONE IT BY NOW. ASSHOLES. God, I'm just in such a bitchy mood today and I was to kill someone so badly.
I conclude.
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