|Current mood:|| bitchy|
|Current music:||Synical - Coke Whore|
*==Fear and Loathing==*
Fuck what a month its been..group sex with punks and hermaphrodites (only the once) bent cops, illegal parties, trannies killing people, way to much drugs for one nose to handle and thats just in 2 weeks. The rest..well the rest is a blur really! I've been trying to get myself of the drugs and surprisingly its working. I feel like shit mind but i can breath now without feeling any pain. Gotta go back to L.A though coz i cant handle the party scene in England; its shit! I need to go back to the party monsters and i NEED to be able to get away with murder! I think im gonna go back to Las Vegas in the summer with Raine. I'm dieing to go and i think she is too. She misses New York and I miss Las Vegas and L.A. I've left some stuff in L.A so i gotta go back and get that anyway its just a matter of when really. We've been talking about it as if its a deffinate thing and i think this time it really is. (The whisky bar needs me) Fuck Hollywood though! I mean it's shit, whats so great about it? NOTHING!!! I'ts just a skanky place with the word 'Hollywood' written on a few walls outside the shops and a big white sign thats (and lets face it) gonna fall down pretty soonish if they keep on stacking that many telegraph poles on it. A few months back when i was there i drove right to the top (well as far as you can go) and i was so shocked to see the electricity poles and pilons. Plus the sign is made from corrogated metal (now who's bright idea was that eh?)
Ahh..bliss...i finish college in 4 months then i dont have anymore college EVER! My mom had a good idea last night. She wants me to see if i can get a job in L.A working alongside my uncle. He knows a few photographers and im sure theyre in need of some assistance. I prefer being in front of the camera personally but who else is gonna take on a girl with blue hair other than the photography indsustry? I was gonna see if i could geta job at the funeral place up the road but you need a qualification to embalm corpses. Fuck that, i'm not doing more studying! If not L.A im gonna try in London which i suppose is pretty cool. I think before i go anywhere though i actually gotta find a job. I think im gona take a year out but to do that i need money and if that means working over time in the cafe then ill do it. I think i should start charging Ryan though. I mean he gets more 'oral examination' from me than he does from his dentist. No, his dentist doesnt give him head its just a figure of speach!
Ben's still not speaking to me. I dont give a shit really but i cant believe i was used! Ah well....ive done it to enough blokes. Loz has fallen out with him too and i think a few other people have aswell. I still cant believe i fucked him though, christ! Tash too....how did i bring myself to 'carry out sexual acts' with her? Actually, i stopped myself just before i went any further with tash.....i just couldnt do it it was too weird. I did feel like a big of a whore when she asked me what was happening with us...i guess i do have a heart. hmmm.....i thought i lost that when chris died, clearly not!