SO many thoughts, so little time
So much has been going through my mind these last couple of days. My birthday is next week and I don't know who's going to come hang out and then I have a biology exam on wednesday which I can't afford to mess up, and I have been thinking so much about my relationship with my boyfriend.
Things are going great with him and I but I don't think I've been fair to him. He is the sweetest guys I've ever met and I'm not really used to that kind of treatment and sometimes I become a little distant. Were at 6 months in our relationship and I don't want things to go bad on account of me. I love him and there is no other person I would rather be with but sometimes I just don't want to be around him.
I mean I love the way he treats me but everytime we have to make a decision about what to do or what to eat he always leaves it up to me even though I give him the option of making the decisions. I mean I like that he gives me that kind of control and he's interested in making me happy its just that I don't want to make all the decisions all the time. I want him to just once take some control in this relationship. I don't know maybe I'm just freaking out because he and I are very serious and I've never really had a serious relationship before. Maybe I just need to sit down, take a few breaths, sing a few songs and relax. I'm sure everything will turn out fine if he and I aren't meant to be together like we think we are.