|Current mood:|| sad|
like a saturday night i'll be gone
its hard to say how i am feeling now. in the most oddest times, i am reminicing of her. crushes dont last for years do they? its like i sit and wonder, aimlessly wondering about her. i wonder where she is, what she is doing, if she's happy, if she's taken. i sit and ponder and doubt myself. maybe, just maybe, if all things could go right we could have had at least something special together. i feel like im writing this to myself to get pity. the worst part is when im sitting there with my girl, and im thinking of her. i want to cry, i want to shed my tears and rid my mind of her torment. its not fair, ive listened to too many sad songs and im sick of it. i always tell my self next time will be the time when it actually goes right and she will see you, really see you.so now and i looking to reunion. god i hope she comes, thats the only thing im looking forward to. if i could have one wish, it would be to find myself holding her in my arms. this isnt normal. this is torturous. and yes chris, i love to dream of things so impossible.