|Current mood:|| weird|
|Current music:||Queen Adreena - Siamese Almedia|
I will not change for you....
Hey, just thought a quick update would be good.
Still working as usual, feels like thats all I ever do these days.
Also still searching for somewhere to live other than here and its just not happening. Gonna have to step up our game a bit after xmas!!
I was going back down memory lane the other day and it hit me how much Ive changed..its kind of a lot, but not at all. ( I realise that isnt going to make a bit of sense to anyone but me)
I'm still the same me, its just that Ive kind of become alot more afraid to be me. Like ive blocked out parts of me, the 'who gives a fuck' parts of me.
Ive always worried about what people thought of me and always been emotional and sensitive but in the recent 1-2 years even more so.
Im getting to realise that this isnt who I want to be. I mean, Ive never been what I can say 100% 'happy' with myself , but who is really? But I used to think out of all the things I wanted to change the person inside of me was never one of them..and now it is...and now Im confusing myself....
I have no idea where all this is coming from, I think I better go and do the dishes or something..
Bye for now