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| Current music: | Evanescence-Imaginary |
Think about the bar and take a swing....
I slept in again..so thats another day of college I've missed..GREAT. Why can't I ever just do things properly?!
Monday night was reallllly fun but at the same time really awful aswell. I wish I knew where I really stood with people. Im sure someone put something in my drink when I left it on the table..which was a STUPID thing to do..dont even know why I did that, its not very me. Im thinking that i was waaaay too drunk for the amount I drank. I go out every week and drink about 3x more f.f.s and Im not that bad. Ended up getting verrrry upset back at rens house, which was *fantastic*, I never tire of embarrassing myself. Nah, he was lovely, we had this big talk about a lot of things, most of it didnt make sense because of my state but it was nice to talk to him again.
On the bright side I am glad i went out even though I was paying for myself and david. :P I was around alot of people I la la la la loooove (and you know how I love to be surrounded by beautiful men! lol) actually, wouldnt mind being back with them now, I hate sitting in the house like this. Actually i just hate daytimes. Theyre boring. hehehe.
My dad had a go at me on tuesdi as well which made me feel like shit cause I cant tell him stuff and if he knew 'stuff' Im sure he'd understand a bit better. Rang me yesterday to see if i was alright though which was sweet. He says I need to sort my love life out and stop letting it affect the rest ofmy life....uhhhh you THINK? App. Ive lost all respect for my parents and the rest of my family, oh and I cant keep staying at 'random peoples houses all the time' ???? WHAT? I DONT stay at randoms houses! I stay a one of two places, one is an ex who Im still really good friends with and lets me stay cause its easier walking to his than paying taxi fare home and the other is a friend who again lives within walking distance from where I go and my boyfriend (well ex as of a week ago) practically lives there now so y'know not exactly 'randoms'? ahhhhhh parents.
Speaking of my newest ex..(ewww that makes me sound kinda like a skank) he tells me he wants us to 'get back together', this was after two days apart btw. i dont know wtf to think these days. I dont know what i want. And I definitely dont want to get hurt. Meh I despise men sometimes..actually most of the time.
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