Josh had his surgery today. I feel so bad for the little kid. My anxiety has gone threw the roof lately. I am starting counseling on Monday but I hate having to wait. The hard part is that I don't know what's causing the anxiety. It's not like I have a huge fear of spiders so that makes me anxious. It's like I'm anxious for no reason. I think when I moved it made my anxiety worse. Also when I started having sex and then got on birth control...the hormones from it aren't helping. I feel like I'm going out of my mind. It's driving me crazy and I'm to the point where I will almost do anything to make it go away. The other night it was to the point where I was just like "God take me now cus this is no way to live" and its true. I mean, I'm not gonna go kill myself...that would just be letting my anxiety win. And it won't! Cus I won't let it. I guess well see if counseling helps.