|Current mood:|| blah|
|Current music:||Something Corporate|
First Entry In My Secret Life
I have a blurty already. It is mischiefoveride at Blurty, but all of my friends have that name. I don't want them to see how I am truely feeling.
I can't stand this insignificant life anymore. I don't do anything worth anything at all. My fucking parents are getting divorced and they don't care about me anymore. My mom just cares abotu what she is getting and my dad just cares about what he is giving her.
My bro well just forget about him cause nothing will ever change until me and my mom leave this house of fights and rage. I can't stand the sight to see any of us together anymore. There is so much hate. I used to be the sane one. Well that ship has sailed. I think that i am insane. ....................
Dreams about Death, killing people... People I don't know and People I love.... , Flying through fire while people try and grab me from boiling water..... , And everything else.... I just am not sure about anything anymore. I hate my lofe, but I don't want it to end. I just want it all to change. I wanna be like one of those completely happy kids that sit in the class smiling and mean it. Not me who sits and smiles privately thinking that i want to fucking stab my chest with a pen.
Christine is kinda pothetic if you think about it... But at the same time she is really sweet.
IDreamOfTeeny: i just finished the yellowcard cd
IDreamOfTeeny: tommy listens to yellowcard:-D
TheIrishRockHard: Wow... Tommy is one of my really good friends.
TheIrishRockHard: And you are in love with the kid.
TheIrishRockHard: It is really funny.
IDreamOfTeeny: then why do u never talk to him
IDreamOfTeeny: iknow... lol
TheIrishRockHard: what do you mean... Why do i never talk to him?
IDreamOfTeeny: i never see u guys talking
TheIrishRockHard: Okay then
TheIrishRockHard: Wow, You are kinda write
TheIrishRockHard: We talk in his people.. And sometimes times on the phone.
IDreamOfTeeny: oh really
TheIrishRockHard: When we are in the hall... I am usually with ashley or some other friends or just too busy talking...
IDreamOfTeeny: write, lol
IDreamOfTeeny: o sorry
TheIrishRockHard: And he is with lisa alll the freaking time
TheIrishRockHard: Or with his 11th grade friends
IDreamOfTeeny: they need to break up
IDreamOfTeeny: shes not even the slightest bit CUTE! in my opinion at least
IDreamOfTeeny: that boy deserves like a fricking ,.....
IDreamOfTeeny: im trying to think but nothing can describe what he deserves