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i'm paranoid now
ok, so psych floor week two. this week it's a little bit more exhausting than last. i had fun last week. the patients talked to me and i was having fun. today was very exhausting. listening to my patients unload their baggage on me today was a little overwhelming. partially b/c i have to get over my feelings about the situation and partially b/c their lives just kinda suck. like a person who cheats on their spouse generally i don't have a lot of feelings of pity for them. but this patients situation just totally blew.
i don't know. i like variety, which may be why i like ER so much b/c you see so much different stuff that you don't just have to focus on the surgical aspect of things. i don't know. I don't need to make my mind up yet, so that's always a plus.
it's strange being in a class where my instructor takes every little detail we say and analyzes it. i was sitting there talking to her and then i started thinking to myself, oh no heather shut up, she's going to think you are crazy stop talking! so now i'm paranoid about what my psych teacher thinks about me.
i heard from my ex-roomie last night. she was saying how we haven't kept in very good touch. and i'm all........yeah i've been busy.....with SCHOOL. i'm such a little bitch, but i had to get that in there to dig at her since she did it to me so much. and i know it's totally petty, but i feel so much better for finally doing something that she couldn't do.
boy oh boy if only Kathy could hear me now.........she'd really have something to say about my personality disorver or whatever she thinks i have.
work has been kicking my ass. or actually, my boss has been. she was beginning to lose control over "her" building, so she called me up and reamed me out for talking to a family member and saying too much the other night. after sufficiently defending myself i then went to her boss and showed her a med error that had been covered up. hehehe. yeah that's what you get when you cross me. ha-HA!
oh yikes..........i can just hear the diagnosis coming out now........ragaholic.