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| Current music: | Sunrise-Norah Jones |
happy green beer day
hey hey it's st. patricks day and I got pinched a lot today.........however none of them were by cute guys damnit! i had a green beer for the first time ever. it was tasty. well as tasty as green beer can be.
i'm so sad that I have to work on saturday......i wanna go bar hopping with my girls! it's times like these when i wish i didn't have a bad conscience about calling in. especially after i just got a really good review from my boss.............i wish i could be carefree and call in and say that i was sick. i did that once, when i really was sick, and ended up going to josh's birthday party anyway and then i felt worse later. things like that usually happen to me.
i'm excited..........over spring break i started reading a book, that was not "Medical Surgical Nursing" or anything related to it. and today I went and bought a couple of John Grisham books. I used to love to read and I miss it. now it's like, books are too heavy and boring i don't want to bother. and that is partially due to school and the countless 50 pound books that i have to lug all over creation. another thing to thank MCC for, my bad back. i'll be sending them the bill for my scoliosis thank you very much!
ER tomorrow. i'm nervous but excited at the same time. nervous b/c of the possibilities that could happen and what if they ask me something i don't know and i look like a dumbass, but excited for the same reason that anything is possible and i'm hoping to see something exciting. not that i'm wishing accidents on people.......but maybe a gunshot wound or something.
KIDDING.......
ok i've been feeling a little unsettled recently. my friend kortney has always wanted to be a nurse and i've given her helpful hints along the way and she hasn't been really serious about school but is at the same time. well now she's changed her mind and says she wants to either be a PA or an ultrasound tech, which are two totally different things, and she's kinda going into it thinking she won't have to work weekends and she won't have to be on call. and i can't decide if it would be bitchy of me to tell her she needs to grow up and realize that anything in the medical field you are going to have to be on call at times and work weekends. and as much as i don't see her being serious about anything and this is just another thing that she's saying, i feel kinda funny. god i sound like a total bitch. and this is part of what i was saying before about how i have all of these expectations and i need to stop b/c maybe she can't be an RN, but i want to really badly tell her all of the stuff that she's not thinking about in regard to her new career plan. and while on one hand i'm really happy to see her getting excited about something, on the other one she's going into it so naive and i want to help so badly, but i don't want to come off as a bitch. and maybe she needs to learn some things the hard way. thinking back on it, when i first started going to school i was all pumped about the money and that i could do 9-5 at a dr. office. and somewhere along the way i began to love it and you couldn't pay me enough to work in a dr. office b/c it is too boring. and while everyone needs to figure that out for themselves what they want to be and such, i wish that i could say or do something to help her become more focused and driven and to do it. but I can't and i'm having a hard time with it. i want to be a good friend, but i don't want to push her into something she's not ready for. so most of the time i just ignore the subject.
i'm a horrible friend.
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