|Current mood:|| confused|
|Current music:||Rye Whiskey by Punch Brothers|
I havn't done this in years, I suppose i just needed somewhere to vent and let it all out and maybe talk to people who might not really be there. I know from my last relationship that angry men and I don't mesh very well. Would I have known better with this one? No, apparently not. Although now its not abusive just verbal and its almost two ways only because of how angry I am. I should stop. I dont know.
In the mean time, I have developed this new obsession with Chris thile.... random obsession. I could listen to him sing for hours and his smile is adorable! I mean absolutely adorable. I am almost determined to make him mine. Yes, make him mine. Not a realistic goal but its a goal. Ha, we'll see where I get with that. I swear though when I saw him at Brighton Music Hall he kept looking at me. could have been because i wanted him to but hey even if its in my head I'm happy with it. I'm going to see Punch Brothers in Aug at Lowell Music Festival, then hopefully I'll have a trip planned to go to NY to see then again and maybe get some passes to hang out with them... would be awesome.
Why am I talking to my computer? I am typing it like your going to respong knowing fully that this is merely a comversation in my head. I've confided in stranger places so I suppoe this is ok but I'm not sure how I am going to feel about it this next time I want to talk. I should be ok with it. I dont know why I wouldn't... Maybe keeping all these entries I can print them oneday... have a hard copied online journal. If that makes sense to anyone. I had journals from when i was like 8 til when i was 19.. my ex made me rip them up in a control fit one night. Left me feeling a bit lost thinking I had let go a part of me and I still think I did let go a part of me with those journals...
Well on that note I am going to end this entry.
"Well let's take some and take them all for granted" - Punch Brothers (Rye Whiskey)